This mornings devotional from proverbs 31 ministries is funny to me in a few ways. First off like I have been sharing, our house this summer feels crazy with projects. I am redoing my kids room, and the nursery. So sewing, decorating, organizing on top of my normal caring for two very busy toddlers and life that goes along with that. On the outside of our house we are also really busy! We got chickens this April so my husband has been busy building a chicken coop, as well as finishing our landscaping projects from our total house remodel from last summer. And now, building a play structure for the kiddos, getting the yard ready for that play structure and all the other things that go along with turning a 1/3 acre over grown lot into a nice place for your family to play and live life in.
So anyhow, one of the projects I started this summer was my garden. Giselle and I planted like I don't know 72 starters of seedlings that to our surprise actually grew in our indoor counter top greenhouse. I was so excited, and feeling so accomplished. However, sadly the garden just wasn't ready for us to plant those little seedlings, and I'm not sure exactly what happened, but my little seeds started to die.. So I panicked.. And planted them, in soil that wasn't ready and I think most of them have died. At first I was really upset, thinking about the money, effort and time, but now I feel like I learned a lesson. I can't do it all, slow down and be realistic. I feel really good about all the other things I am doing. Like loving my kids and making it through each day. Maybe we will garden next year, but for this year, I just don't care. :)
The other thing that struck me about this post, is thinking of the quiet planting of seeds with my neighbors. I feel like neighbors get to see you in your "raw" moments. Especially when you have little ones that dart out of your front door and run towards the street, watching you load your wiggely kids into the car, or for me the big one has been yelling at my two little precious ones that seem to forget about listening skills when we are playing in the back yard. Lately I've been thinking the neighbors behind me probably have no idea I'm a Christian, and worse off they probably think I'm just not a very good mom. My "quiet planting" is definitely on display out there when people can hear my child rearing ways. And so I pray:
Lord I pray that I am always gentle with my children and in the way I discipline them, and not because of what the neighbors think, but because of what you think Lord. Help me to be the mommy you want me to be. Lord and even though I feel huge and tired from being 30.5 weeks pregnant help me to not be lazy, but to get up and play with my kids instead of yelling at them from the sidelines. Father help me plant seeds in those that are around me, not by what I preach, but by how I live my life. Thank you Lord for my life and my precious family. I love you Lord. Amen.
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